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yepp..haha.. todae is 28th feb.. the girl on my right side is weiting~~ hoho.. todae is her bdae! she looks so cute right? gt the bb fats.. lol. todae me, weiting n liwen planned to meet at 12pm but becuz the birthdae ger couldn't make it on tym so she postphoned the time to 12 30pm.. n poor ah huang.. din know abt the changes..lol. and she reached the seng kang mrt station b4 12pm.. sorwee la liwen.. as alwaes.. me the "chi-dao" queen..lol. took the LRT at 12 30pm which was suppose the meeting time.. den while anxiously hoping the LRT to reach my destination asap.. the LRT opened at compassvale.. den in came an orange guy.. lol. i mean a guy wearing orange tee la.. and he was wc.. the first guy i "an-lian" fer 3 yrs! hais~ k la.. he still looks cute.. but my heart belongs to someone else liao le.. someone hu likes orange as well =D when we saw each other we were like.. okay.. so odd de feeling.. den smile abit to each other.. courtesy mahh.. aniwae.. after tt walked different path when we reach sengkang station.. so poor ah huang.. she waited fer me fer like (6min x9 trains=) 45 mins.. lol.. i was like late fer onli 15 mins.. realli.. but she reached at 12pm.. tts y.. it became 45mins..lol.. and she blamed me fer it.. i'm not the winner todae. realli~ weiting won me by 1 train.. liwen waited fer me fer 9 trains n fer weiting its 10 trains.. LOL.. sorwee la liwen~~

we took the 11th train and in the train we decided tt we shall go ps~ hais.. went there juz few daes ago..lol.. (present)was meeting ah lei at ps.. haas.. cuz she cant possibly meet us at cp.. she finished her sch at 12 30pm n her sch was like at SRJC~ so she cud juz take the red line? =D after meeting ah lei..we went to buy movie tickets! its realli a pity tt lei could not catch the movie with us.. the earliest slot was like 04 30pm.. lei gotto reach home b4 06 30pm so she could fetch her brother home from school so aniwae we bought 3 tickets fer the pink panther.. saw the trailer on internet ytd.. looks funni..haha..

we went ajisen fer lunch.. (i had the same dishes again as the previous dae de.. except tt my chicken teriyaki became fried prawns n hot green tea became ice lemon tea) =D i am a real blurred girl.. i act totally forgt tt lei told me she was eating lunch with her classmates.. haha.. after all the tok cok-ing.. we went to take neoprints~ haas.. dun realli like the neoprints machines in Ps but we juz took aniwae fer we wanted to rmb this special dae =) the neopics taken were not tt nice lo.. cuz the timing was like so short n fast.. woah.. cant catch up with its speed..lol..

went shoppin after tt.. when nearing o4 15pm.. lei suddenly suggested we eat ice-cream.. (banana spilt) but the price was like so high.. so we went to order this dunno wad low fat choco chip choc ice cream waffle.. and ate.. wanted to took a pic of it before it was eaten but instead.. it was taken after it was eaten.. lol.. too tasty le.. =D

after we finished the ice-cream.. we took out my handmade cheesecake n i fed weiting my home-made cheesecake!!!(weiting made us choc muffins in return =D ) hoho.. (n ya the cheesecake is realli purely done by me okay.. dun doubt my skills~)

looks so odd right? lol.. den after tt i took advantage on ting's present turtle~

(by kissing it~ =p)

after tt ice-cream and sort of cheesecake meal.. we bid lei goobye den went fer our awaited pink panther.. omg.. its realli so super cool.. din regret watchin it.. haha.. i laughed from the beginning of the movie till the end.. lol.. cool.. i loved the part where closeau or wadeva sae hamburger.. cuz he pronounced it till so funny.. ham-bur-bur.. am-bleh-blah.. he looks so much like a little kid then.. haha.. its realli a funni movie.. go watch it n u will understand~ =)

after watchin the movie.. we were kind of "needing the toilet" .. so went toilet la.. den i played with my cam in the toilet again.. cuz there gt this big mirror mahh.. haha..

(me n the bdae ger~haha)

after tt we act. wanted to go takashimaya de.. but liwen sae too late ler.. was nearing 8pm soon.. n she gotto reach home b4 8pm so forfeited tt tot of goin taka.. instead we went cineleisure.. wanted to look at this handsome guy who sells ice-cream but unfortunately i think he din work.. lol.. so we went shoppin a little while n i bought my ripples slippers~ hooray.. finally i hab a pair of slippers le.. din hab one after my trail slippers was stolen during the chalet last yr.. haha.. =) went home shortly after tt.. den weiting went cp's watson to buy some choc.. lol.. managed to get one packet of kinder bueno choc from weiting.. haha.. my present~ den we walked home!!! gotto save money ma.. adult fare lehh! =P stoppin here le la~ jie jie sae i blog too long ler! she wanna use com.. =C

overall.. todae is quite a happie dae! =)

missing him so badly sia.. =x

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12.25am

apple loves
10:32:00 PM

sian liao.. i realli dun nid to grow up ler.. alwaes near 3 then sleep.. papa sae from 10pm -3am there's these some types of enzymes or wad wud be released in our bodies from our brains n make us grow de.. den u know fer girls they onli grow till they r 18..and sobbsx.. i this year 17 ler.. next year jiu 18 ler.. wun grow up ler.. sobbsx..i'm goin to remain this short forever ler.. =x

i'm juz so small size la.. realli dunno hw i shud act like u know.. act matured? odd sia.. kiddy size matured character.. den act kiddy.. odd again.. 17 ler still so kiddy.. someone help ar.. i realli wish i cud juz stay on kiddy lo.. can sa jiao all that stuff.. but my age dun allows me to la... whenever i sa jiao all that alwaes kanna scolded de.. sae i childish.. hais.. wadeva ba.. whenever think of all these stuff i headache de.. tml then think ba..haas..

todae.. i did quite some stuff lo.. early afternoon went to didi's pri sch to see hw the sch goin to settle t bully matter.. as usual.. the sch made us waited to be served and entertained.. lousy sch.. tt yeo ah "DI" alwaes know hw to run awae from us de.. whenever we visit he wud juz disappear into thin air man.. stupid principal.. dun deserve to be one.. lousy.. if u cant be one good principal juz stepp down ba.. let others promote.. (grins.. u too old ler..)

after tt stupid n long visit to the sch.. went home.. onli asked us to get the medical fee from the insaurance company and tt they will be handling tt matter in detail after their exams then "shoo" us out.. as i said.. lousy school.. then the teachers over there quite support the bullies u know.. fed up with em.. lets change topic

wanted to buy wrapping paper todae at cp.. but its was like so.....poor thing lo.. no one was available to accompany me go CP.. sadded.. den as usual.. laid at home.. watch vcd.. "liao zai zhi lu pan n ah bao" casting by bryan wong, yang chen ling n so on.. *dunno their name ma* den after tt wrapped stuff n so on.. den laze at somewhere till round 7pm plus.. den suddenly tot of baking ceesecake.. nuts right? 7pm plus den start baking cheesecake.. realli lo.. somemore i nv bake tt cheesecake b4.. know nuts abt cheesecake baking at all.. n i think.. i'm a pure expert with my cheesecakes.. *i loved eating em* i succeeded in my life ever first batch of cheesecake successfully (all done by myself de) weeets`!! applause ppl! applause! =D

started at 7pm plus and ended everything in clean state at around 12am.. yeah.. i told u i'm a PRO.. lol.. tired sia.. decorated the cake n kept em in fridge again.. tml den eat ba~ mummi, sista n papa tasted em.. they sae it tasted not bad! so tt means my skills r there.. hoho.. wanted to let my prince try em too.. unfortunately.. cant do so.. he dislike milk mahh.. and wad is cheese made from?? its from MILK~~~ sadded.. to think my fav. cake is cheesecake.. (ps: din noe tt cheese is made from milk de lo.. till he told me when i ask.. lol) k la.. i knw i abit sg la.. cheese is made from milk oso dunno.. aniwae tts me la.. a big goondo.. =/

tml is weiting's birthdae.. i mean todae is weiting's birthdae.. forgot its over 12 ler.. haha.. meeting her n liwen later at around 12pm.. goin out to watch movie.. know i cant celebrate with her la.. but can go out with her right? =D myb tml watch pink panther ba.. from the trailer.. its looks good.. n jie jie sae its damn funni (she watched it with her bf todae.. =x ) but i'm oso interested in 49 daes.. so.. let weiting decide tml.. haha.. weiting 17 ler~ weee~ i'm still not yet 17 =x younger than her~ k la.. think i better slp ler.. if not later will be late again.. lol..

nites ppl!! *wonders if he did score well fer his paper todae..* =/

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2.57am

apple loves
2:04:00 AM

yawnzZz`! late ler.. nearing 2am soon.. welcome to my blog fer my recent report on my daily life.. haha.. i've gt very "zong shi" readers.. lol.. so i muz blog as mani daes as i can huh.. if not my readers wun feel good without reading my blog.. haha.. =p

k la.. stop all the laming now.. =D todae was my first dae of work again after 1 week of leave.. wahh.. sian dao....... no words can describe man.. early morn reach bus-stop waited fer huiyan ..hais.. unfortunately.. we din caught up the bus 27.. cuz be4 she cud reach.. the bus was driving off slowly in my face..(huiyan's bus was juz right behind bus 27) wahhhhh.. best liao lo.. my reporting tym is 10 45 den it was alrdy like 10 30 then.. confirm late de lehh.. so guessed wad we did?

Gotcha! we took taxi.. =.= (bankrupt arr...) aniwae still late lo.. reached at 10 49.. lol.. v hungry.. din eat breakfast ma.. den early morning exercise(runn to bus-stop).. confirm will hungry de.. din realli eat snake todae lehh.. wad a wonder.. my toys in cskp is being brought in!! omg.. so squeezy fer my toys.. they wun be happi de lehh.. i oso! cuz theres so limited space fer me to stand n pack em.. i know i'm slim.. but its still squezzy fer me!!i not happie means my toys not happie.. haha.. i decide fer em their feelings =p (me siao one lahh.. haas) but nvm lahh.. at least my toys wun get tt dirty as easily as when they r outside the kp.. my poor toys.. sian lo.. after todae.. i'm on LONG leave again.. hais~ my toys will be sad de.. cuz no one will pack em up tidyly.. realli.. sometimes realli frustrated with my colleagues.. they juz treat the toys like dirt.. dun pack em de.. throw em aniwhere.. poor em.. onli treat their deparment (under their care de) like their babies liddat.. darn it..next month 7th dae den can see my toys n caps again..

heck care lahh.. if i hab money i'll buy all the cutie soft toys.. esp. my beloved pooh n tigger~ =D had fried rice fer luch n "dan bao mian" fer dinner.. nth much happened lo.. as alwaes kanna gang bullied by my colleagues.. (the disadvantage of not understanding hokkien.. =C ) its alwaes liddat de lo~ plus i'm the youngest of em all~~ hooho.. myb they jealous of my youth.. lol.. which certainly is not true at all.. juz tt i alwaes make blunders lo.. todae my section leader ask me take the walker giv customer see den guess wad? i took it to my colleague ah heok n sae.. ah kee sae giv u see.. =.= (then i tell u.. ah kee's face is like gt the addidas face) lol.. wad to do.. i gt bad hearing =x aniwae other than tt they alwaes sae i v *deah* some sort like too girlish.. i think..lol.. alwaes complain i eat too slow.. haha.. walk oso slow.. do things slow.. -.-

dun care la.. i xi guan le.. den near the night there was this commotion abt hu is this new supervisor lo.. yeah.. they were mocking at me la.. cuz i knew nuts abt hu is my new supervisor la.. onli know tt its one of my cskp de colleagues lo.. come on la.. i din turn up fer work fer 1 week ler..hw wud i ever even know! i onli know that my detestable colleague has been promoted to the pwkp as section leader-to-be.. so happie lo.. no nid c her face animore.. hoho.. aniwae the commotion kept on goin till we finished work.. sian lo.. dun intend to know abt it le.. den they still like mocking at me over it.. gt nth best to do.. juz left em la.. went home with the heok auntie.. (well known within us tt she likes to touch my butt n sae.. no fats de..) -.-" lol.. we knew it was a joke la.. when she did tt.. (*squat down.. hw am i goin to face my future??* lol)

took bus 27 to head fer home again.. sat by the side of an unknown guy.. not shuai not cute no muscles.. nth at all.. haiss.. so din even look at him a while longer.. muhahaha (i'm so bad) sat down den tot of my "prince" hees!!! missed him sooooo much.. din msg him fer like 2-3 daes ler.. den i happily messaged him "u on holidaes ler?" sadly he replied not long after "sorry.. having a test tml.. cant msg with u tonight.."(warning: details written in sms is not the exactly the same as wad i typed though the meaning is in there =D )

sad...sad..sad....... nvm la.. his exams is more impt.. plus i'm onli his normal friend.. =( aniwae.. i wished him score well in his paper todae.. later.. feel so much to see him.. hais~ aniwae.. he din replied after tt.. reached home around 11pm den sat down fer some tv awhile den my jie jie came~~~~~ showing me attitude (the fact was tt she was angry with my bro addicted with playin maple la.. den she wanted to uninstall maple and came showing me attitude when she was trying to convey me the message she was goin to uninstall the game.. ) so i was so fed up with her tt.... i showed her attitude too.. sia lahh.. so drama man.. den went back to watch some vcd borrowed frm huiyan de.. so watched 3 discs onli.. jiu 2am liao.. den came in blog fer 1h.. now 3 am ler.. i'm a pro.. k la.. dun blog ler!

so.. my dear blog readers~ i'll be stopping here!! i wanna join my darling prince in our little wonderful dreamland.. (ughh.. sounds abit too mushy..) =p nites everyone!

uh.. i mean early morn everyone! YawnzZzZz`!

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2.57am =)

apple loves
1:50:00 AM

hey hey! wad a BORING dae it is todae~~ sians.. stayed at home whole dae todae =/

todae is since my ah ma's death de 7th dae.. heard tt ah ma would be back visitng each n everyone of us.. so mum juz gave the orders! "all muz sleep before 11" hohoho~ its nearing 11pm ler but unfortunately.. i juz din listen to mum's orders.. i'm still bloggin now!!!

oo.. i'm a bad ger.. watched the "pin chiong gui gong zi" den mummi afternoon cooked onli veggies.. oo.. fer ah ma mahh.. aniwae it was delicious.. i ate alot.. while eating i was watching the "shao nian te gong dui" haha.. so damn funny..after tt i laid around.. watched anime.. series of shows n programmes tt nv stop~ watched till now.. still watchin.. haas..

den now bloggin.. so u guys know la.. i'm 1/2 bloggin n 1/2 watching tv now lo.. (xian jian qi xia zhuan) hooho.. v v v nice~ okay la.. mummi is naggin me to off my com ler~ cuz ah ma comin back from 11 onwards.. =)

apple loves
10:02:00 PM

okay.. here to blog ler.. haha.. dunno why de lehh.. everytym i come in blog is over 12am de.. den the things i write abt became ytd de stuff with todae's date.. lol.. u cant blame me.. =p

aniwae the dae started with a clear bright morning..woke up at around 11am++ to make myself as pretty as ever.. lols.. tts wad girls do wad.. hoho.. arranged to meet huiying in school at 1pm in my former secondary school.. unfortunately was tremendously late fer around 1h or so? heys.. its not realli my fault though.. i was juz reaching fer the door knob ready to run out the door house de but i opened the door n saw my brother in a pathetic state crying..

he was all wet over with green glitterings sticking on his head.. and was pressing onto his right eye.. realli shocked me man! and be4 i cud ask anithin he screamed n took out a small orange plastic bullet ball out of his right eye.. this is so horrible man.. den i asked wad happened.. but he was quite in an unstable state to speak well.. aniwae i think i sort of caught wad he was trying to sae..its some sort of a gang bully n guess wad? the bullies are of his calssmates.. i think my face of an angel at the moment became a "bao gong" face bahh..cuz i went to the primary school from the back gate to the office.. all the students were like lookin at me.. hoho.. i'm cute or scary? aniwae..i think i was to my extreme todae.. i think i'm realli too scary ler.. i juz opened the office door n stepped inside n said firmly, "i wann see the principal." i sounded calm.. but nobdie attended to me.. damn it.. so i juz repeated my sentence louder.. (looked rude bahh)..

so i guess i juz spoilt my image in my previous primary sch bahh.. but hu cares lahh.. den the idiotic principal juz trying to entertain me hoh.. den softly call "*jc jc.. come here.. tell me wad happened.." i like so *f* with his pretentiousness la huh.. becuz after askin tt question he juz asked another "low-classed" t-cher to entertain me.. telling us tt "sorry huh.. i gotto send e-mail to MOE.." darn it.. which situation is more impt? the MOE email? or my brother goin blind? cant weigh the matters izzit? u wann me to wait fer u to entertain me izzit? i'm on a rush lehh! *f* sry lahh.. know its not part of my "feng fan" to sae the *f* word but its realli to the extreme.. if u alwaes hang ard me.. u wud understand this situation de.. =x

aniwae.. i juz like talk back to the "low-class" t-cher lahh.. den i think she hated my attitude ba den she gave me the "i-hate-you" look.. eeek.. i'm being hated.. but i dun give a damn abt her la.. cuz she isnt of my ani close friends or wad.. i wun be seeing her everydae oso.. bleh.. (i'm feeling like a devil now) aniwae.. the teachers n so on made us to look fer the doctors fer medical treatment fer my brother.. of cuz we din hesitate.. den after tt treatment we went back the sch.. guess again? the principal act. took the chance to run off from us~~~ pretentious yeo ah ***.. hmph.. to think i act adored u as my princpal 6/7 yrs ago.. i was wrong! TRULY regreted doin so! i was BLIND! HMPH! then the stupid teachers over there juz simply like treated us like rubbish or so lo.. ask us to wait fer the VP huh.. cuz he eating his lunch u gotto wait.. *ass..* he VIP izzit? i gotto wait fer him? i mean like i'm alrdy quite good huh.. willing to like expect an explaination frm u but u rejected my kind offer so y not i will juz expect a good explaination from the police? the classmates are abusing my brother! mind u.. tehy are ur students n u gave such heck care attitude? u will get it from me n my family fer doin so..

since u gave me this attitude.. i wun bow down to it.. i will take up this so-called challenge.. i took pics of my brother of where he is hurt n so on.. den i juz simply left the school la huh.. leaving my mum n bro in the sch.. i know they confirm lose the case once i leave.. but well.. i dun care.. i getting em to the MOE.. so i juz took LRT to my sec sch n meet huiying.. saw jiahui on the wae to sch.. chatted with her fer awhile till we reach sch.. haas.. met huiying outside the sch n walked to the seng kang mrt station.. realli had fun todae..first thing we did when we reached dohby was to buy our movie tickets.. realli din noe wad to watch n so after some tym of decision we decided on "THE FOG" ..when we were leaving tt floor we saw one of our ex-senior(tommy) workin as one of the GV staff.. shock tio..haha.. i din expect to c him dere wad.. aniwae den we went aijisen to hab our ramen set meal! weets! i had ton toro ramen n she had the ruan rou ramen! slurpie~ nice man~ like the soup base.. haha.. den after tt we went shopping~~ hohoho..

went to bought some iron on jewels n a black giordano tee n a green samuel n kevin TEE.. wee.. duhh.. the first two items were not meant fer my usage one oki.. dun look at me as though i'm a spenthrift.. onli the S&K tee was mine n it costs $18.. =p den after tt my papa called me.. i tell u i respect my papa man.. he juz ask me to send him the pics i took of my bro n e took em to the police station to report tt incident.. woah.. he din like even wanted to give the sch a chance.. lol.. well.. the sch deserves it? argh.. den i went unwillingly to watch "the fog" with huiying after the call.. hais.. den saw the ex-senior dere again.. he was the ticket collector mahh wad to do.. din intend to like "xiang ren" with him lo.. den huiying act. went to sae "HI!" to him.. win liao lo.. but i dun think he recognize me bahh.. haha.. he was tokin to huiying lo "i think u look familiar.." den huiying sae he tokin to me.. aniwae we 2 were like idiots discussing hu he was tokin to till we went into the cinema room.. haha..

"the fog" can sae not realli scary la.. its sort of a creepy n sad story lo.. the elizabeth end up dead.. din end up with nic as a couple sia.. sad sad sad.. wann noe more abt it? go watch it lo.. =p
when the show ended i was like i wann stand up n stretch den i look backwards my seat den dere i saw tommie standing dere.. scare me sia.. lol.. aniwae left fer cp after tt movie.. cuz huiying wanna buy her comics.. den i ended up walking home frm cp.. legs so sore.. =C

so my dae ended up with my mummy complaining abt hw tt idiot sch treated her after i left n den here i am bloggin this super long entry.. chatting with my good friend zhiwen~ =D

think its still counted as a sort of happie dae bahh~ =p
stopping here~ bloggin soon again~! =)

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2.40am

apple loves
1:09:00 AM

weeee~ had a long long long and deep sleep.. i felt like emm.. sleeping beauty.. lol.. woke up around 12pm todae.. wow.. so afternoon sia.. my papa todae was on leave fer 1/2 dae so i juz had to drag myself out of bed n change clothes n go out with my family fer the sort of "breakfast" at RM.. sia lah.. b4 go out took a look at a mirror.. to comb hair mahh.. den i found my hair like.. all over anywhere.. not in place de.. like siao lang liddat.. to think i imagined myself as a sleeping beauty earlier.. haiss.. *saddened* but not to worry.. after i combed my hair.. i looked beautiful.. juz like a princess.. muhahaha.. (did i hear someone vomitting? duhh.. think my ears gt probs.. =p )

went to foodcourt in RM fer my breakfast.. eeek.. i feel like a bad girl.. cuz i was waiting fer my papa to serve me.. lol.. my desired "breakfast's" (chicken chop rice) shop was onli steps awae but i was simply too lazy to even move my butt.. lol.. ok la.. i felt guilty fer doin so ler.. nxt tym wun do it again.. =p the food... was simply alot.. in amount la.. couldn't finish it.. so i pushed the rest of my food to my mummi.. wad to do.. she can eat mahh.. haha.. i'm juz a bad lil' ger.. =p

after munching my breakfast went to the optical shop.. wanted to buy the solution needed fer washing the contact lenses cuz of the news article tt the renu solution cud act make one go blind lo.. so scary den my jie jie n me wanted to change the brand.. but papa sae dun buy first.. cuz scientists haven confirm which solution tts making one realli go blind yet.. myb after confirming le.. i den change so currently these few weeks not wearing contacts ler.. haha

after tt me n my jie jie went guardian shop.. while my mum was shopping fer some sort of Orhh biang purse.. i think.. i was kind of happie lehh.. cuz i bought neutrogena face whitening lotion n cleanser.. haha.. made from natural extract de.. think its more dependable? soy beans can help whitening the skin tone right? haha.. i guess yesh ba.. tts y i was happie tt i bought it..

den after tt went home surf net fer a long long tym.. while surfing was chatting with my "him" fer awhile.. he was busy studyin n practising fer his tml's paper.. haha.. hardworkin him hoh.. hope he can score in the paper.. den played msn games with my pam cuzzie.. gotto bow to her man.. i plae wad game lose wad game.. esp. the minesweeper..sia lahh.. i onli gt 1 flag den she won ler..

after she requested fer her nap den i went back surfing again.. surf fer a long long tym den watch tv till nw den blog.. haas.. alrdy counted as the nxt dae le bahh.. cuz its over twelve ler.. hoho..

i found out smth u know.. incinerator is meant fer rubbish de.. so i shudn't hab use "incinerated" fer grandma.. shud use "cremated" omg.. sorwee ah ma.. dun mean it de.. haven been using my english fer some tym n it juz.... became so limited all of a sudden.. sorwee ah ma... forgive me.. =x

aniwae.. i'll be stopping here le.. my jie need to use com.. =p (she's having papers tml too.. hope she can score well =D ) bloggin soon again =p

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12 32am

apple loves
10:42:00 PM

i'm finally back in my home sweet home ler.. i'm tired.. i'm sad.. i'm depressed.. well.. mostly due to the sending off of my ah ma.. n partially becuz of stayin up late n not able to sleep well these few mights den all my pimples n eye bags n dark eye circle comin out.. omg.. my sweet n innocent face is bein ruined by it.. spoilt my image man.. think i gotta rest more these few daes.. aniwae will be still on leave till 26 feb (last dae of work) =x gonna hab no income soon.. -.-

these 3 nights hab been stayin in my aunt's hse n spent 2 nights slpin on my ah ma's bed.. found tt her bed is so...... like rock.. v hard.. i slept till my back aches.. wonder hw my ah ma manage to sleep well all this time.. 2nd night stay wasnt realli great.. had a splitting headache tt night while my jiejie n pamie cuzzie were slpin by my side.. having a headache in aunt's hse was quite a handful.. cuz no pandols at my aunt's hse.. so i was almost like tossing n turning around in pain.. pressing my head with my hands n finally.. knocking my head in the pillow.. duhh.. din help at all.. onli at ard morn 4am+ den did it subsided abit.. den was able to catch some sleep.. poor me.. but tt was not the end.. after my headache den came my "auntie" .. sia la.. din realise it until i went toilet.. den whole night here pain dere pain.. tts well couldn't slp well..

3rd night worse.. can sae i din slp at all.. hais.. played mahhjong with cuzzies n my jie n mum.. to kip ourselves awake.. cuz nid to prevent the cats from entering the wake ma.. den the best thing is i was too tired to go on the game ler.. my cuzzie on the other hand was so enthu abt it.. kept askin us to plae till 5 in the morn.. and we did.. my cuzzie realli best liao lo.. at 5am he went to slp ler.. makin me n my jie jie couldn't catch ani sleep at all.. cuz if we did sleep.. there will be no one lookin out fer the cats ler.. my cuzzie realli.. abit not gentleman sia.. cuz of this huh.. eye bag come out le! hmph! image spoilt le la!!!! =x (haas)

morning 6+ me n jiejie went up to aunt's hse to wash up n down again fer quick st den chantings fer my ah ma again.. gee.. i broke my own record again.. i told myself to hang on fer these 3 daes.. dun cry too much but todae.. hais.. cried again.. wore onli socks n sent the van with my ah ma inside to the road den went onto bus.. was cryin since the monk asked us to took a last look at my ah ma.. on the bus.. i sat by 9th aunt's side.. haiss.. cuz my cuzzies all hab partners le ma.. den u know.. on the long journey.. one wud tends to think more de ma.. so i tot of my ah ma all the time i was on bus.. kept cryin till i slept off.. i din know i slept off.. hais.. den after i woke up awhile later.. we reached.. the place where we were abt to incinerate ah ma's body.. the place was high tech n looks abit holy(to me)they even hab viewing hall fer us to view our ah ma bein pushed into the incinerator.. cried again..

around 11+, we were sent back to aunt's hse again.. we hab to wait fer the ashes of our ah ma to get ready.. so that we could collect em and head to jurong where my grandpa's ashes were placed n placed the two of em together.. when we were collecting ah ma's bones.. i suddenly found tt.. my ah ma's bones r so little.. from such a huge body.. it became a small pile of bones.. i couldnt realli believe it..aniwae after placing my ah ma together with my grandpa.. we again headed back to aunt hse fer our own stuff n went home.. wasn't able to hold back my sleepiness so slept in the taxi.. from ah ma's death.. i realise tt death could befall on anione suddenly.. i cud juz hab anione dear to me leaving me suddenly.. think i better cherish everyone around me now.. before its too late.. i dun wanna end up with regrets again.. =/

finally could take my ah ma's death in stride better le.. i am slowly accepting the fate.. dun worry guys.. i will try my best to pass my daes happily de.. wun alwaes stay depressed =) will be living my life to my fullest with lots of happiness! (fer my dearest grandma n grandpa)

may my ah ma rest peacefully n happily in her new hse with my grandpa.. ah ma n grandpa.. watch over us in heaven.. ilu.. =)

o ya huh.. btw todae 22nd feb le right? todae kailing's bdae lehh.. can wish her happie bdae ma? cuz weiting sae like 1 yr cant celebrate anithing.. not even wishing ppl happie bdae n celebrating it with em.. is this true? emmm.. if u all know abt it den tag me n tell me?

think i goin off ler.. i'm v tired.. gotto rest.. =/

will be bloggin again soon de =)

if onli u felt the same wae://*pingsx

10.37pm

apple loves
9:21:00 PM

was so angry with my few uncles ytd.. wanted to stay there overnight n was scolded.."Girls dunn stay! go home!.." i was realli angry.. i was thinking.. y onli guys get to stay? girls cant stay ar? cant u guys see tt i juz wanted to stay near my ah ma now n then till the end? cant u even grant me this little stayin overnight thing? the amazing thing is.. i finally dared to rebel these uncles abit..yea juz abit.. from tt timid little girl in their heart to a rebel? i was afraid of em since small okki.. they r fierce wad.. it left a deep impact on me when i was small.. haha.. perhaps they saw my anger written on my face when my 7th uncle wanted to force me home.. and they finally relented and let me stayed fer the night.. i realli felt like a rebel then.. haas

pam cuzzie they all went back after a little while more..the night was long.. and ah hao cuzzie left me alone at the table.. *fumes* he told me he was getting foolscap n wud be comn down after tt! n then.. 5min passed.. 10min passed.. 30min passed ..he juz wasn't back.. =.= so...... i asked my "prince" to chat with me? duhh.. he wud be a great choice of all my friends to chat with.. cuz.. onli he wud be able to cheer me up better.. haha.. he is a lamer wad.. my friends are all too... ugh.. girls-wud most prob get emotional with me.. guys-heck care or juz simply tok to me abt wad courses i chosen =.=

act. i juz need someone to tok rubbish with me la.. dun let me think of my ah ma stuff so easily.. then cry mahh.. gave it a real serious tot.. and solution was tt i juz cant cry tt much in front of my ah ma.. so i will try to cry as lil as i can.. aniwae my "prince" did quite a great job in tokn rubbish with me huh.. we dun even realli noe wad we r tokin abt.. haha.. it juz cheered me up alot..felt abit sorry fer delayin his gaming tym(thankful fer his sacrifice)..haas.. aniwae i was glad tt i din realli cried alot last nyt.. and when i was cryin.. no one saw? :') my crying image not nice ma.. so best is no one seen me crying :/

took off date on 22nd.. shud be workin on tt dae de.. but i wud be sending ah ma off tt dae.. ah ma more impt than my money.. aniwae my supervisor understood my situation n even comforted me again..thx..was realli grateful fer it.. went to aunt's hse fer rest tt nyt.. (was forbade to look at my ah ma in the nyt b4 i went fer rest.. =C myb uncles scared i wun be able to slp well at nyt..) aniwae i din rest well tt nyt either..juz toss n turn repeatedly.. cuz my papa la.. slp at my side snoring so loudly.. haiyo.. den i realli din hab the heart to wake him up too fer he was juz too tired.. (he came right over after his work around 12++.. his eyes were all red red de..hais.. my poor ah pa..) cud see tt my ah pa was realli realli realli sad over my ah ma's death.. but he juz din cry.. i mean like guys hardly cry too right.. think my ah pa juz silently kept his screams n tears in his heart.. =/

this morn.. woke up at around 8 ba (when i finally juz slept fer awhile..-->my pap's snores went more softer ma..) den went fer breakfast.. had fried bee hoon with egg n fish roll n a spoonful of porridge.. duhh.. din realli hab the appetite.. then finally my pap n me was left alone to look after my ah ma's coffin n look out fer cats.. my pap said this to me out of the blue,"ah ma left juz so quick.. . previously i was still thinking of getting her over my hse to live.. hais.." din realli know hw to comfort my pap.. almost cried.. =x den i went over to my ah ma's coffin n took a long look at my ah ma.. *cries softly* she looks so pale even with those make-up.. *heartbrokenned* .. 7th uncle n auntie came not long so i juz quickly wiped off my tears n walked awae.. my pap brought me home on his motorbike not long after.. and there i'm home now bloggin here.. think i gotta get some rest now.. got to join em back later in the afternoon.. :/

i'll miss u ah ma://*pingsx
12.29pm (correction nw 2o.o2.o6 ler) =/

apple loves
11:31:00 AM

it started out as an ordinary working dae fer me in the morning.. everything went well as normal.. except tt i had been knocking into stuff n habb been hurting everywhere.. but there isnt ani bruises.. i tot it wud be a happie dae fer me todae.. everyone was quite nice to me.. perhaps myb todae was the last 3rd dae i wud be workin in century square's kiddypalace.. i worked extremely hard todae.. =/

aniwae around 1+pm my favourite ex colleague , sandy, dated me fer lunch in the long john.. had a hearty talk with her.. felt great.. and after tt.. i went back to work unwillingly.. as i had to part sandy

it wasnt long after i was back to work.. i recieved an sms.. from my da jie.. "Grandma passed awae ler.. ='( " tt was the end of my happie moments todae.. i tried to swallow back my tears v hard after reading it.. but it wasn't effective at all ..realli.. as soon as i reached the storeroom.. tapped on my colleague's shoulders.. tears flowed out.. my voice was trembling real hard.. i knew i was unstable le.. "my ah ma left me...." i think when my colleague saw me tt wae.. she was real shocked ba.. i couldn't hold it longer le.. she came out without finishing her lunch and asked me to sit in the storeroom.. n calm myself down first..

i cried fer nearly half hour n finally went to wash my face n tot i wud stop crying.. but.. when i went back fer a drink.. my tears came flowing down my cheeks.. i wasnt able to stop crying afterall.. called ah fang.. but still no use.. my tears wun stop.. my eyes went puffy n red.. my supervisor came over n asked me to go home as she saw tt i was realli not in the right mood to work animore.. wad shocked me more was.. she and my other colleagues (inclusive of those hu were on leave todae + my manager) act. prepared "bai jin" fer my dear ah ma.. they realli din know my ah ma at all.. and they had done so much fer me.. i am realli grateful fer their actions.. *touched*.. they were realli understanding colleagues..

i think i am realli a crybaby.. cuz my tears started its work on my face again.. this time it was worst.. the tears did not stop flowing when i left my workplace nor did it left me when i waited fer my bus to come.. n continued on during the journey and finally stopped when i was back in my house bathing.. it was a full half an hour again.. probably everyone hu passed by me had act seen this ugly tearing image ba.. but i just wasnt in the mood to care abt my image animore.. my brain was full of thoughts why did god n grandpa chose this tym to take awae my dear ah ma juz when my father and us realli wanted to treat her well.. letting her enjoy her rest of her life to her fullest with the family love we were abt to shower on her.. i can see tt my father realli realli wanted to take this chance to show her all his filial peityness towards her.. he wished fer her to pass awae in a place she knew of (our hse)instead of sgh.. but all these wasnt done.. we were not given the chance.. why is this so.. these tots nv left my mind..

after bathing fer a "long tym".. i finally came out.. laid on my sis's bed.. moodless.. my mum came in our room and made a big fuss tt i was angry with her fer i think she treated my ah ma not well enuf when i told her if she cud stay silent n not speak to me..(i realli din mean it.. i juz wanted to be in a silent environment .. u know one one is sad its best to leave her alone.. let her be in a silent environment..) cant she understand this point..? aniwae i was simply juz in a loss of wad i shud be doin.. so i switched on the com decided tt i shud come in and blog.. i juz wanted to remember this moment n mark this moment.. tt i lost my garndma fer good.. n i muz accept this fact.. it is time i face reality.. i'm not goin to escape frm em animore.. i'll try looking it at a different perspective? :'C

everyone said to me.."its good tt ur grandma passed awae.. she has finally left her pains n misery.. joining ur grandpa now.. u shud be happie fer her?" i know i shud.. but i'm juz too heartbrokenned to be happie fer her now.. please understand my feelings as a grandchild.. i loved her so much.. but my love was kept in me all this while not shown to her at all due to my timidness.. i regretted alot..but all are juz too late.. (sobb..)

i'm leaving fer my ah ma's funeral soon.. think i wun be able to hold my tears when i reached there again? this is a sure thing de.. : (

Leave me alone now.. i dun wish to chat with anione.. excpt ppl whom i think r impt friends n ppl to me..
i'm sorry if i hurt ur feelings or wadsoeva with this sentence.. but pls understand..

i will not be bloggin fer this few daes ba.. so we'll meet again.. in daes.. :/

ah ma if u ever see us cryin later on.. pls dun feel bad over it.. i juz dun wanna hide my feelings.. i juz dun think tt its wise to hide one's feelings.. it is difficult to suppress feelings.. u might get depression if u suppress em in u too long? :(

i'll miss u.. ah ma.. :'( //*pingsx
6.07pm

apple loves
4:47:00 PM

saddie.. early morning while i'm still on my bed lying, i recieved a shocking call from my papa, "ur ah ma maybe cannot make it le, come visit her now.. fer the last tym.." i tell you.. i was realli shocked awake.. my eyes shot open oki! den i quickly got up.. was intending to juz change my clothes n go lo.. but.. my hair is juz not obedient.. they were standing up!!! =.= (maybe i slept too long le..) i simply grabbed my clothes and took a quick bath.. was realli realli so sad.. that i act cried while bathing.. i'm nuts right? while bathing my mummi was nagging at me non-stop.. i'm realli angry with my mum. my ah ma is facing difficulties now.. was in danger.. instead of keepin quiet and let us calm ourselves down, she was like adding salt to the wounds lo.. i'm so frustrated with her actions tt i juz totally ignored her fer half the dae till late evening..

well.. my ah ma was better abit le mahh.. so on the wae home i finally relented abit n tok to my mum.. but still angry with her abit.. =C i think my relatives n my mum is quite weird n abit sickening lo.. my ah ma haven die yet lehh.. then they were like discussing hw much longer she wud live (1 dae 2 daes..?) was so disgust with their discussions.. are they realli my mum n relatives? do they realli care abt my ah ma? was trying to seek some comfyness n sort of "shelter" from these relatives n my mum hence smsed him but i guess he couldn't help much.. duhhh.. he didn't know anithin wad.. *cant blame him*

In the evening, i went CP with my jie jie cuz we juz needed to shop fer a cabinet fer to place her tp's notes nicely? its all stacked up in a messy wae in our room.. hais.. k la.. i did add on to the mess.. but not realli alot? =p went kiddypalace n de siao my darling weiting den act cute in front of xiaomei(supervisor).. haha.. well she said i'm naughty wad.. one look at me will know i will be a bad influence to weiting? haiss.. THANKS huh weiting! THANKS fer being so innocent in front of em n indirectly i became the baddie! SOBBSX!! nvm la.. i know all these were a joke? =p aniwae we din buy ani thing at all not even a cabinet tt we intended to buy.. alright then my sis juz like completely ignored my existence because of her boyfriend =C

no lahh.. i not angry with her bf its just tt.. she completely ignored my feelings? she juz held unto her bf's hand as soon as my sis saw him? den i was like.. u know light bulb by the side? so BRIGHT lo.. den was intending to leave em alone n she asked me why arent i following em? isn't tt a stupid question??? i'm so left out in between em n i'm juz so BRIGHT.. haiyoyo.. stupid jie jie.. aniwae i went to B1 and looked fer ah yun n jing yong chit chat awhile.. den my sis appeared dere again.. idiot sia..

again me n my jie parted waes i went off to jollybean n bought 2 cheese pancakes n ate em while walkin home.. was a cooling night.. my hair was like flowing with the wind's rhythm? awwww.. i juz like the feeling of walkin in the night with slight wind blowin through ur hair.. so coolin~~ haha.. a romantic scenery fer me onli tt my mr right was not by my side walkin with me.. if not it wud hab been a perfect moment.. awww~~ i juz like fantasing.. i'm nuts abt romance.. lol.. see.. again drunken in my perfected "romantic" scene..

when will i meet my mr right? =x

nvm abt tt.. wish my ah ma will be alright.. =/ (prays hard://*) think i'll stop here.. (".) will update again real soon! tatas! =x

if onli u felt the same wae://*pingsx
10.57pm

apple loves
9:59:00 PM

hey`! i'm back to add another entry le! since my da jie saes she wann slp till 5 den use com.. haas.. y not let me bring u back on my valentines dae? =p duh.. know u guys not realli interested.. but i juz wanna make a mark on that special dae.. 14th feb huh? it marked off my journey with a bad start.. i went singapore poly for course counselling.. was realli interested in their business admin but my R4 was too high fer tt course.. well.. i know i could try DAE and so on.. but the lecturer dere sae i couldn't do so? because.. i failed both my sciences.. DUH!!! was quite shocked when the lecturer told me tt i needed science fer business cuz there was no indication on the JAE booklet tt i needed science fer tt course besides the letter i recieved indicated tt i was eligible fer tt business admin course!!! wads all this rubbish.. was realli depressed over tt matter and tt ZX.. was rubbing salt into my wound.. "why scored so badly fer ur sciences? go retake em this year then come back la!" tts it.. my tears was on the verge of flowin out le.. but.. hw could i cry in front of all these unknown people???? i just swallowed back my tears in.. u know the feeling of swallowing tears.. don't u.. ? it makes u feel more down n depressed.. well tts fer me.. as soon as the lecturers left me n weiting alone.. i gt hold of the chance n left singapore poly unwillingly.. i wasn't able to even take a look at my "prince" =/

on da mrt.. ZX sent a total of 3 messages containing "sorry" in it.. i dun realli blame u la.. but i was juz "too knocked back to reality?" *sad* in fact recieving the 3 sms made me felt tt i'm bad.. haas..

after leaving singapore poly.. weiting unwillingly followed me to bugis.. haas.. duh.. she was tired mahh.. we din even had the chance to take neoprints.. there was simply too much couples squeezing in dere waiting to take neoprints. wad do u expect? it was valentines dae mahh.. around after another 15min walk in parco bugis we decided tt we were too tired.. and headed home.. mood of depression nv left me since the sp incident .. den.. it happened!!!!!

I SPILLED MY HANDMADE COOKIES N CHOCS IN THE MRT STATION!!!! (as i was abt to enter da mrt train) sobbsx!!! it was fer my darling huang! (liwen la.. not my "prince") =/

i quickly picked em up n placed em in my bag.. was so sad.. i slept in the train.. hopin to forget all the incidents tt happened to me.. but NO! when i woke up weiting told me the waes i slept was so funny.. (i was standing while sleepin ma..) she said i was like bowin to her.. haha.. aniwae the sleep wasn't good.. felt so uncomfortable.. learnt smth though.. **dun sleep while standing in train.. haiss.. spoilt my image! haas..

reached CP not long after den companied weiting to watsons to buy her chocs.. den she PS-ed me.. haiss.. she chose to went home with her jie jie? i mean like its alright la.. if its me.. i wud gladly do so too.. haha.. but my da jie wun be thinkin soo....lol..

Fer me.. i chose to walk home by the long route instead of takin LRT.. sighh.. adult fare lehh.. was goin to be end of da dae soon.. n i still had 5 boxes of cookies n chocs.. sad.. nobdie appreciates wad i done? i was walkin near to his blk.. so i called him? n dated him? uhhhhh.. sort of ba.. i dunno hw to phrase it in a nice manner.. haas.. it was actualli.. quite a some sort of miracle? he agreed.. =) i handed him the stickers with his name imprinted on it? yepp.. i did.. i made the stickers last year christmas eve.. at where he worked? unfortunately.. tt was where i met the indian pervert as well.. Sobbsx..

i handed him my hand-made cookies as well.. it was actualli quite amazing.. i found out he dislikes the taste of milk.. luckily.. the cookies doesn't contain ani percentage of milk =)) after tt we went on chatting abt my O levels results n wad courses i could actually choose.. it was i nice n cooling talk.. i enjoyed every moment v v much.. he was wearing orange tee when he came down.. i suppose he likes orange colour? cuz.. i hab alwaes been seeing him with orange.. haha.. hais.. as you know.. good times doesn't last.. i had to go.. had to meet up with one of my ex senior.. to my suprise.. he accompanied me to meet him up.. =)) he was...... so gentleman.. =D

after meeting up with tt senior i went to looka fer ah ang to pass her my cookies n chocs.. =) den i went home reminiscing the moments i spent with him.. haha.. i told u i like fantasising.. it was a happie dae.. after wad happened in the late evening.. =) hw i wished he was my valentino.. hw i wished he is by my side.. but no.. he doesn't has tt type of feelings fer me.. i won't push further.. i will juz stay at a little dark corner likin him.. happiness n bliss isn't smth u can wishh fer much.. the more u wish.. the lesser there is.. i dunn wanna him avoid me again.. i like things are now.. dun bring me back to reality now.. myb sometym later ba.. when i learnt hw to deal with my feelings.. =] hais... why am i getting so emotional right now.. think i'll stop here fer 14th feb! it was a great dae! =)

duhh.. after finishing this entry i would probably juz clean up my room n as well as the living room ba.. it packed with my stuff.. those sec 4 books n so on.. dun realli hab the heart to throw my stuff u know.. after i spent effort doin those stuff n writing notes.. but i'll hab to do so.. cause my ah ma is movin in with us.. it will cause inconvieniences fer her n us de.. i've got to be a good girl fer once? =D i lubb my ah ma! =)

stopping here =/
if onli u felt the same wae://*pingsx

apple loves
4:14:00 PM

Wee.. i finally finished my bloggie!!! kind of complicated though.. ehh.. first tym ma.. everybodie has their first time de! =)) Aniwae the credits of creating this blog dun onli belongs to me as well as my da jie n elena jie n of cuz my darling ah fang fer my cbox n joel fer the backgrd music he gave? =D Lubb u guys lotss! gotta stop here.. cuz my da jie wanna use com.. she waited till she's almost asleep le~ haha will add another entry later on? =)

tatas!
if onli u felt the same wae://*pingsx =))

apple loves
3:55:00 PM