`HER! my long lost click! ):
she was found n is gone..
`HIM!!
`live happily without any worries or sadness :)
`to become a good PATISSEUR
`just to be LOVED
`go JAPAN! TAIWAN! HONGKONG! KOREA! THAILAND! AMERICA! AUSTRALIA! ...!...!
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<3 apples forevermore!
<3 be loved!
<3 shopping!
<3 baking!
<3 pastries!
was so angry with my few uncles ytd.. wanted to stay there overnight n was scolded.."Girls dunn stay! go home!.." i was realli angry.. i was thinking.. y onli guys get to stay? girls cant stay ar? cant u guys see tt i juz wanted to stay near my ah ma now n then till the end? cant u even grant me this little stayin overnight thing? the amazing thing is.. i finally dared to rebel these uncles abit..yea juz abit.. from tt timid little girl in their heart to a rebel? i was afraid of em since small okki.. they r fierce wad.. it left a deep impact on me when i was small.. haha.. perhaps they saw my anger written on my face when my 7th uncle wanted to force me home.. and they finally relented and let me stayed fer the night.. i realli felt like a rebel then.. haas
pam cuzzie they all went back after a little while more..the night was long.. and ah hao cuzzie left me alone at the table.. *fumes* he told me he was getting foolscap n wud be comn down after tt! n then.. 5min passed.. 10min passed.. 30min passed ..he juz wasn't back.. =.= so...... i asked my "prince" to chat with me? duhh.. he wud be a great choice of all my friends to chat with.. cuz.. onli he wud be able to cheer me up better.. haha.. he is a lamer wad.. my friends are all too... ugh.. girls-wud most prob get emotional with me.. guys-heck care or juz simply tok to me abt wad courses i chosen =.=
act. i juz need someone to tok rubbish with me la.. dun let me think of my ah ma stuff so easily.. then cry mahh.. gave it a real serious tot.. and solution was tt i juz cant cry tt much in front of my ah ma.. so i will try to cry as lil as i can.. aniwae my "prince" did quite a great job in tokn rubbish with me huh.. we dun even realli noe wad we r tokin abt.. haha.. it juz cheered me up alot..felt abit sorry fer delayin his gaming tym(thankful fer his sacrifice)..haas.. aniwae i was glad tt i din realli cried alot last nyt.. and when i was cryin.. no one saw? :') my crying image not nice ma.. so best is no one seen me crying :/
took off date on 22nd.. shud be workin on tt dae de.. but i wud be sending ah ma off tt dae.. ah ma more impt than my money.. aniwae my supervisor understood my situation n even comforted me again..thx..was realli grateful fer it.. went to aunt's hse fer rest tt nyt.. (was forbade to look at my ah ma in the nyt b4 i went fer rest.. =C myb uncles scared i wun be able to slp well at nyt..) aniwae i din rest well tt nyt either..juz toss n turn repeatedly.. cuz my papa la.. slp at my side snoring so loudly.. haiyo.. den i realli din hab the heart to wake him up too fer he was juz too tired.. (he came right over after his work around 12++.. his eyes were all red red de..hais.. my poor ah pa..) cud see tt my ah pa was realli realli realli sad over my ah ma's death.. but he juz din cry.. i mean like guys hardly cry too right.. think my ah pa juz silently kept his screams n tears in his heart.. =/
this morn.. woke up at around 8 ba (when i finally juz slept fer awhile..-->my pap's snores went more softer ma..) den went fer breakfast.. had fried bee hoon with egg n fish roll n a spoonful of porridge.. duhh.. din realli hab the appetite.. then finally my pap n me was left alone to look after my ah ma's coffin n look out fer cats.. my pap said this to me out of the blue,"ah ma left juz so quick.. . previously i was still thinking of getting her over my hse to live.. hais.." din realli know hw to comfort my pap.. almost cried.. =x den i went over to my ah ma's coffin n took a long look at my ah ma.. *cries softly* she looks so pale even with those make-up.. *heartbrokenned* .. 7th uncle n auntie came not long so i juz quickly wiped off my tears n walked awae.. my pap brought me home on his motorbike not long after.. and there i'm home now bloggin here.. think i gotta get some rest now.. got to join em back later in the afternoon.. :/
i'll miss u ah ma://*pingsx 12.29pm (correction nw 2o.o2.o6 ler) =/
Rainbowlin