emm.. ytd i had kind of a long chat with hh.. though there were lots of long pauses.. dere we go talking abt relationship stuff.. haas.. it seems like the impact he caused on me is quite deep huh? n vice versa? =x he was telling me tt i waited at wrong door all the while.. even if i continue to knock at the door.. the door wun open.. until maybe 4-5 years later when the door hole is being dugged and the person behind the door can look thru.. and den decide whether the door should be opened anot.. (v chim hoh?) but i think some of u may understand.. =) i'm willing to continue to knock on the door fer 5 yrs.. but the person behind the door.. dun wann me to do so.. =/

after this chat abt the door door stuff.. i after tt became v super moody lorr.. i ignored sb.. =x sb sae i like v fierce liddat lo.. wahh.. i first time nv realli tok to sb since i knew him.. hh all ur fault? =x aniwae.. i realli dunno wad tt sb wann lo... i'm puzzled.. i'm confused.. i'm moody.. wad does he realli wann? first he told me.. the "bf" was not fake de.. after tt said he dunno whether he realli mean it anot.. now.. he wann me to be happie n said tt he can cheer me up.. he can do it.. wad he trying to sae?? or maybe its the chat with hh made me to see things liddat now..

i'm in a dilema of hw i shud treat him now.. i realli... dunno.. is he fer fake or fer real.. i cant differentiate.. dun come and inflict ani pain on me!! i'm scared... i dunn wann to be hurt again.. i may be yearning to hab a relationship.. to be pampered by someone.. but.. i'm scared of getting hurt.. leave me alone.. i wann to live in my dreams happily.. yarr.. juz these few daes of dreams can? i'm tired of reality now.. i nid to recharge myself.. before i enter back into reality.. let me rest.. i nid the rest.. i dun wann to tok abt BGR stuff now.. i will not be calling sb my "bf" animore too.. at least for awhile.. until i sort out my feelings n thoughts.. =)

emm.. ytd i took my online quiz when i was moody.. yar the results were quite bad lo.. 16/27 norr.. (59%) onli.. i learn smth.. nv do stuff tts so impt in a moody state.. haha. hao ler.. i dun blog liaos.. my ah huang n weiting waiting fer me at cp liaos! =) they are my sources of energy.. some wae or some wat.. my ah fang is my battery of cuz~ =p aniwae.. ciaos.. later wun be bloggin i think.. i gt glossary to study =x jiayous orhhhh!!!!!!! :)

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