i learnt smth!!! nv nv nv nv nv blog stuff abt say bing! -.- he gt v helpful friends.. hu wud come over my blog... n copy some stuff n paste den let him see~~ i dunno who is tt~ =.= n sb wud nv tell too~ so... yepp.. i'll try not to be interested whoever that person is. haha. =x

2 daes ago~ the dae b4 my last paper.. i had fun! haha. alvin long was playin his webcam with me! hehe. v funny! he was making those faces in the cam! haha. den singing tank's song which i dun recognize.. and asked me to guess the song~ haha. =x he trying to be funni larr~~

aniwae.. enuf abt stuff of the past.. hw abt some feelings of the present? =) wad can i say.. i'm feeling so bei ai.. depressed.. its a feeling as if... like there is a hole some where in my heart.. and i'm falling in it.. deep deep deep deep.. no end to it.. its a pitless hole.. somehow i cannot find answers to some questions.. even after a long long long time of pondering.. i cant understand..

i'm not trying to be melachonic here.. this is really the wae i'm feeling now.. =(

i don't know why.. i'm missing alot of people now.. alot.. feeling abit helpless now.. hais.. is it the after effects of depression? i dunno lehh.. last yr the councilor i met in sch told me it is probably the after effects of depression.. -.-

wad a long n silent night this is.. =/ feeling so much to be hugged in someone's arms~~ awww... plz dun be alarmed lar.. i not refering to guys~ haha. i'm imagining myself in my dear dear dear godmum mrs raj's arms~ =x haha.. anione of my loved ones jiu hao.. i love the feeling of being hugged tightly.. =x its juz so warm n cozy... =/ to me..nobody knows how a hug can realli touch one's heart.. it can realli make one feel realli happie. people around me probably thinks that hugging is disgusting ba.. or rather.. its an odd action (btwn friends n friends). i rmb i was hugging my dear mrs krishnan with tears when i recieved my O lvl results.. its smth realli warms me up.. =) it tells me tt.. somebdie was there to share the v precious moment with me.. its realli memorable. i realli deeply appreciated for the hug.

aniwae why did i go so detailed into hugs ler.. hais.. its juz so painful going thru a lonely night by myself.. arghh.. tts y i had to blog~ haha. thx to this blog i cud waste some of my time over here~ =/

had a short chat over the fone with mrs raj earlier on! haha.. missing her so so so much~ nvm.. this coming thurs goin over her place to visit~ =x should i bake some stuff and go over? afterall.. i'm going to be a CHEF! lol.. a short one... =.= (mr raj sae de) o man... papa.. hw can u do this to me?? i gt to wear a tall hat so ppl can see me in the kitchen!!??? thx ar papa! ... u gt great sense of humour~ haha. watch ur world cup lar =x when am i getting my didi or meimei?? start planning le hoh!! 2 yrs over liaos lo~ wahahaha.. =x

think i better turn in early.. tml i'm meeting my dears~ at 12pm! yeahh~.. -.- better dun think so deep~ later mre bei ai onli~ hoho. i gt to hang on to my belief tt facing things positively.. everything wud turn out positive de!! call me naive~ but this is my belief.. the belief which made me hang on till now~ =)

nights everyone! i'm missing everyone so hard~ even my jie jie (yujie) in sp~ hahas. =x

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