bonjour..

imso down and angry now..
so cheated by the guy i believed most in..
the guy i hardly doubted his words..
my maria..
so far.. he din realli lied to me at all lo..
its myb some stupid jokes la..
but those i can take it..

this lie.. i simply cant take it..
they lied to me.. that they are seperated..
and he asked me to pray hard that nth wud happen to sc..
for he might have met up with a plane crash...
freaker man.. why the hell did i ever believe him?
made myself worry for him till i almost cried..
FREAKER...
it turned out that all this was a total lie.
he was with him all the while..
at that moment realli felt like a stupid idiotic dumb dumb
gt cheated of my real feelings.
worried for them for nth..
F***
its a life u 2 are jokng with me about!
FUN ar?

get this straight..
IT ISN'T FUN AT ALL.
im not laughing ok..
im bleeding!
in the heart!

so much for treating the 2 of u dear to me..
fake! everything is fake.
myb i over-reacted.. but still it isnt smth i cud get over within a moment..
at least let me sleep thru a night..
cuz normally i forget everything in a night.. when i sleep..

maria.. u are always making me feel so.. accusing u la..
sae so much sorry to me...
it doesnt helps when im in a pique of anger..
im sorry that i couldnt be in my right mind then..

aniwae.. enuf abt them.
today is christmas! merry christmas!
i went out with weiting and liwen at cp.. lol.
we ate the merry xmas special meal at pizzahut
then exchanged our present and went shopping around the whole CP..
seriously.. its quite sian.. most of the shops are closed. lol.
at 8pm we met up with qinlei and pass her her presents! :D
then after that weiting and liwen went home leaving me eating ice-cream with my darling qinlei! :D
after that....
went to century square de kiddypalace and chit chat with the ex-colleagues then off to compass point's kiddypalace again. lol.
the party is on~
everyone started eating eat lo.. then chit chat then eat..
then came the lucky draw like exchanging of christmas presents~
i v suay suay..i gt this present where the thing size big big.. then.. i went home open it hoh...
its a tupperwear.. worse still.. i think its a free gift la.. cuz gt a logo in front sae wad.. "hong leong" or wad thing..arghhh~ my previous present was better! :/
so total of presents i had today is... 7? (inclusive of my v v v v v late birthday present from ah lei :D)
i love my apple soft toy best~ :D given to me by dajie de. :)
i gt 1 pair of star cookie earring
1 pair of pinky star earring
1 packet of chips ahoy biscuits
1 packet of melty kiss chocs
1 nicely packed bathing towel
ya... 1 tupper-wear
and my birthday present a handphone strap!! :D

thank u everyone who celebrated christmas with me :)
u guys made my dae... not sian! haha.
kkies i go slp le lar..

au revoir.

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