2 days ago!
i said sry to him for all the miscommunications.
although i still think some parts im not in the wrong..
but i'll juz take up all the wrong hao le..
afterall i started the first mistake.. tts to fall for him..
he replied he was on fault too
but he'd remember the cute little mdm.. =.=
i cried again!
i hate myself
i hate myself
i juz hate myself lar! ):
was sad not realli becuz of the happening.
but becuz he told me he going back to london for jail for 6-9yrs.
asshole. bastard.
u made me cry again! >.<

aniwae dun wry guys.
he din go back for tt at all. well..
at least.. he din suffer smth he shudnt?

YTD!! i chatted with daniu ge for 2 long hours!
haha. he's cool and good.
aprreciate his advices and analyses. :)
made me had a good laugh with his craps.
at least it lighten my burden in my heart

but after that then i came online..
he was there talking to me..
asking me whether i still bear a grudge against him..
becuz i hardly reply him.. haa..
i mean like.. seriously lo.. even how hard we try to be friends again.. you know best that there would be a scar in the heart..
but he expect us to be like in the past again.. and talk to him freely..
so how do u expect me to talk to him juz after like..
it happened within 2-3days?
i seriously nid time to get over it..
and im realli realli sry.. u cant help me at all..
im emotionally hurt not physically hurt..
u cant help at all..
and one last thing..
i seriously dun wann u to enter my world again
and hurt me once more..
i cant promise u tt we can be like the past..
cuz i dunno wads going o happen in the future.
and of cuz.. there is a emotional barrier within me now..
to believe or not to believe u..?
to be wary of u or juz reveal everything to u..?

today.
i went out with my lesbie to watch pan's labyrinth.
aw..
wasnt realli up to my expectations lo..
kinda sian..
but i enjoyed lesbie's comapny.
thanks for being there for me :)
saw ur cutie one~
haha.
tell ur cutie dun wry! i wun snatch u away from her! :p
ya.. i rmb smth! i was freezing until i trembled in the cinema la.. =.=
hao la hao la..
think myb tml go dye hair~ :D
haha. its my practice to do smth to my hair whenever im hurt mar~ :P

okie.. additional stuff to kill myself thoroughly.
lol.
they went for ah yong's chalet but din ask me along. :)
caryn went for today's one.
so i guess~ =)
his target is realli caryn now. :)
nvm. i'll wait for my right one.
i mean WAIT! not going for it animore~
okie.

im tired!!!!!!!!
i go slp le lar! night nights! :p

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