arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i juz feel like shouting out loud. =/
2 days ago i went chalet leh! hoho.
ahYong's chalet! =p
ya.. so wad if u nv tell me! i still gt dajie. =)
thankfully dajie told me about it..
cuz i saw my ahOng!!!! =D
ya.. i made it my main motive to go there.
other than ahOng its not for anyone else.
but of cuz my dajie! cuz she wann see me~ :D

aniwae. i stayed for the night cuz caryn asked me to? =p
no la.. cuz i oso missed my last bus home..
den dun wan take taxi.. thats y lo. haha.
hmm.. i dunno whether to sae its good or bad that i stayed anot lo.

he gt drunk tt night. simply in pathetic state. to me.
but to others he looks cute lo. rw sae de. haha.
he did so so so so much happening stuff la.
cuz he gt too high. high till the extent he went to disturb ah neh!
2 ah neh! then the auntie in cheers. siao de.
he peng quite a few times lo. then gt one time is he peng on caryn's shoulders.
hmm.. i duno wad to sae leh.. myb he realli does like caryn bah..
he refered caryn as the one he loves.. so myb?
i duno.
i juz know i feel v v v uneasy with him around and all his actions.
i juz cant bring myself to be normal in front of him lo.
i juz cant help it but thinking of him thinking me v negatively..
"miss, i v scared of ur mummy.. i wonder wad she'd tell caryn again.."
mrOH.. i realli feel like slapping u up-down-left-right.
im not those who use underhand means to seperate ppl. and i seriously dun do that.
no matter hw many times im hurt.. i believe that you-qin-ren-zong-cheng-juan-shu.
in the end, lovers would be together forever more de. this is smth sweet.
even though it isnt of my own's.. i will still feel sweet for others.
serious. and this is the reason y i desire to be in love. =/
but i guess the more i desire the more i wun get it ba..

OK! final conclusion is I AM STILL SO AFFECTED BY HIM LAR!!!
i guess the time to get over him yet hasnt reach..
perhaps i should give myself more time and not rush to get over it. haa.
WADEVA~
*imnotgonnathinkofhimlerrr!!! x100!!!*
lol. wad? im trying to influence myself! haha. ya.. i shud juz move all the emotions to think and care more for my marianne. she needs it more than he do.
:)
dear god. pls bless that she'd be free from the clutches of the evil. let her live a healthy life!! pls~
in the god of jesus name i pray. amen. =x

im not christian la.. but i juz pray to him.. i go pray everywhere de.
thinking back i did pray for him b4 lo. i prayed for his safety and well-being and trouble-free from all the london thing. if god let this come true.. im willing to suffer emotionally.. omg. lol. so i think it did came true afterall? =x
he din lie ar.. indeed he isnt in any trouble now some way or other and indeed im suffering now..
so i guess i cant blame anyone! haha. cuz its i asked for it.
karkar.. (shit in french)
machiam dunno lar.. hmph.
i managed to help my marianne to push him off till after exams..
i guess.. tts all i'd do..
whether u 2 are able to be together.. depends on fate bah..
of cuz.. i'd help my marianne de.. depends on situation ba.. i'd remind to take ur vitamins on time de!! =))

he came to talk to me when i was on the verge to off my com.
asked me to tell him about his happenings when he was drunk..
wad rubbish.. he was so happening for the whole night.
how to tell him everything with only one hour. -.-
actually i was very scared of him when he was drunk.
i seriously was afraid he ask me about that asshole thing again. lol.
so i hid as much as i could away from him.
he did happening stuff by my right hand side.. i'd turn my head to left hand side..
juz dun wann see him at all.
dun wan to know wad happened.
but i know all. lol.
inclusive the most... ashamed thing.. =.=
i juz cant bring myself to say it..
i think i'll juz skip wad he did exactly during the whole happening night bah.

hmm.. kinda pissed off with rw today.. commented on my ppt again and again!
hello!!!! i spend one night on it and i sacrifice my sleep for it!!!
can at least like sae.. smth good about it!!??? >.<
juz din wanted to quarrel with her.. then juz.. look at her.. then...
i said.... "orh" then went back to my slides again! lol.
weirdo me =x
but i guess she knows lo..

arghh.. my cake taste so bad. puke* err.. not i make de lar.. jiejie buy de.. pui*
tml comm skills test la.. i think i better stop here le. its a damn long entry!! :)

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